It's been 19 days since my last post.
Nineteen days of staying quiet.
Nineteen days of fighting Satan's lies that I am not worthy.
Nineteen days of a soul battle.
Nineteen days of questioning my role here as a writer.
Nineteen days of listening for His voice.
Nineteen days of waiting.
Satan is the prince of lies. He makes them sound so rational.
I started to believe his whispers:
~You're not worthy to write about freedom in Christ when you've been in a chokehold since November.
~You're failing in some of your relationships, so how could you write about relating to others?
~You flounder in your walk with Christ, so how could you share His love with others?
This is where I have been:
Frozen in a winter of lies.
The truth is, I don't feel worthy. But my Savior is thawing my cold, weary heart and reminding me of His light that burns away the frost of the soul.
I had allowed earthly disappointments and relational heartache to seep into my soul and rob my joy. Over the course of a few months, I began to realize that I no matter how hard I tried to fix it, I was powerless.
Powerless to please.
Powerless to redeem myself.
And then it hit me.
I have already been redeemed.
Even when others see my flaws, He sees my heart and He says I am worth dying for.
Even when I feel powerless, He makes the weak strong.
Even when I don't know what to say, He reminds me that He loves me.
Have you been believing Satan's lies? He has plenty for each of us and he's ready to dish it out. Don't succumb to the icy fingers of falsehood. Be filled with the warmth of the Father's arms. They are ready to wrap around your soul and rekindle your joy.
I'm back and I'm ready to share my journey with you. You're going to be surprised at what has happened over the last few months. Can't wait to catch up with you!!! xoxo