March 25, 2008
I know with my heart that I can trust Him with every detail in my life.
Sometimes I can't seem to wrap my mind around it.
It's letting go of the phantom control that I think I grasp that gives me trouble.
He holds it all: my yesterdays, today and tomorrows.
I welcome that. I am relieved by that.
He holds my children; their yesterdays, today and tomorrows.
I find that so freeing and humbling.
But, there are days I think that I know better. Know better that the One who created them in my womb?! Better than the One who knows every thought, emotion, hair on their head?!
How could I know better than the One who sees the whole picture, not just this tiny speck of today.
Who am I to question His infinite understanding of all things? Who am I to let a little piece of doubt wriggle it's way into my thoughts? He is the Alpha and Omega. Beginning and the End.
He loves me with an everlasting love. He loved me long before I ever acknowledged His existence. He planned my life before it ever began. He KNOWS me. He does not intend harm.
As much as my heart bursts with love for my children, He loves them even more. How could I be afraid? He lives in their hearts. He holds their souls, never to let go. He sees their future and delights. His ways are higher than my ways.
I will choose to trust. Trust the one who holds it all in the palm of His hand.
I trust Him.
To God belong wisdom and power; counsel and understanding are his.